Mandisa Opens Up About Depression and Grief

Deep depression, loss of her best friend, questioning God, turning to food for comfort, being super single—all things Mandisa opened up about in her chat with TheHopeLine!

Mandisa was so sweet when she spoke to us, and the really cool thing is that she is not ashamed to talk about her struggles. She is authentic and real and brings a lot of raw emotion into her music! 

Mandisa's new album, Out of the Dark, is based on personal experience.  She says God has pulled her out of the dark and now she has a renewed passion for her music and a willingness to be transparent and vulnerable about the challenges she faced the last several years.

Depression can be a deep, dark hole that sucks you in further and further. It can be all-consuming, and you can feel like there is no hope. Depression can be a struggle all of its own or it can stem from so many other things like anxiety, grief, relationship issues, and abuse. If you are in that dark place right now or have been there, you are not alone.  Singer, songwriter, and Grammy winner, Mandisa has been very transparent about the deep depression she faced in the last few years, and she tells TheHopeLine what it was like.  She says that, at one point, she was comfortable in that dark place. She explains, "I shut out everyone; I shut out God; I shut out everyone who loved me.  I hardly left my house.  I stayed in my house every day. I ate and I watched television, and I've never been more miserable in my life."

When you are in a deep depression, it's all-consuming, so it's very hard to make positive steps to move forward or get help. Mandisa was in a depression for about 3 1/2 years until she reached a turning point. Mandisa said God showed her 3 things:

1. We have to walk in community with one another.  - "There's a difference between needing time to re-energize and isolating and shutting out the world."  Her loved ones loved her too much to leave her where she was.  Friends and family are important!

2. Stop focusing on your mistakes in the past. - "I had to stop battling with shame because of all the mistakes I made."

3. Look for those flickers of light that come in so many places. - "Darkness is overwhelming, but it only takes one flicker of light to chase out that darkness."

If you’re struggling with depression, please reach out for support today. You can chat with a Hope Coach. It's free and confidential.

Mandisa's Grammy-winning song "Overcomer" was written for her best friend, Kisha, to encourage her while she was battling breast cancer. Mandisa later wrote "Prove Me Wrong" from the anger she was feeling after her friend died.  She says the song is not tied up with a pretty Christian bow, but it's honest and heartfelt.  She says through her grief she learned, "When you are dealing with grief, you have to bring that to the Lord, or you are going to bring it somewhere else."

If you or a friend need support right now, please visit the suicide prevention resource page. Head here for a list of crisis centers around the world.

TheHopeLine Team
For over 30 years, TheHopeLine has been helping students and young adults in crisis. Our team is made up of writers and mental health professionals who care deeply about helping others.
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52 comments on “Mandisa Opens Up About Depression and Grief”

  1. What an inspiring interview. I'm in that dark hole that sucks you farther in. Isolation, food and anger dominate my life, and the misery never ends. I am encouraged by Mandisa's testimony and would love to hear her songs. Perhaps this is the flicker of light that God will use to chase out the darkness that has overwhelmed me.

  2. Wow! I'm speechless, it's such a powerful, meaningful and so sincere. Dealing with the same things as Mandisa, it was such an experience to listen to her album and would be honoured to receive her album as I know it would help even more than it already has!

  3. Wow! My name is Brandi, I live in Las Vegas now.. From California.. I can relate to Mandisa on depression, becoming a shut in.. And challenging God.. I have been through so much pain and loss, rejection and lack, for what seems like most of my life! Iam 41 years old and a single mom of a 23 year-old autistic son.. But, now, here lately.. I can feel God's nudging me, and glimpses of light in the darkeness.. Thanks for sharing Mandisa!

    1. Brandi, Thank you for your comment and your story. God is with you and loves you dearly. I have a family member diagnosed with autism, as well, and I know it can be very hard. I feel your pain and isolation and want you to know you are not alone. I'm so hopeful to hear that God is nudging you and that you are seeing glimpses of light. We actually have a prayer site too if you would ever like to post a prayer request at http://www.theprayerzone.com

      1. Thank you! I needed that... Provoked a conversation with the Lord moments ago. Please keep us in your prayers! I was recently dumped too, by a minister a man of God, I thought was going to marry me! Needless to say, I need much support! GOD bless you guys!

  4. Thank you so much for sharing! Long story short, I really needed to read this today...stopped me in my tracks. What a godsend

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