Deep depression, loss of her best friend, questioning God, turning to food for comfort, being super single—all things Mandisa opened up about in her chat with TheHopeLine!
Mandisa was so sweet when she spoke to us, and the really cool thing is that she is not ashamed to talk about her struggles. She is authentic and real and brings a lot of raw emotion into her music!
Mandisa's new album, Out of the Dark, is based on personal experience. She says God has pulled her out of the dark and now she has a renewed passion for her music and a willingness to be transparent and vulnerable about the challenges she faced the last several years.
Depression can be a deep, dark hole that sucks you in further and further. It can be all-consuming, and you can feel like there is no hope. Depression can be a struggle all of its own or it can stem from so many other things like anxiety, grief, relationship issues, and abuse. If you are in that dark place right now or have been there, you are not alone. Singer, songwriter, and Grammy winner, Mandisa has been very transparent about the deep depression she faced in the last few years, and she tells TheHopeLine what it was like. She says that, at one point, she was comfortable in that dark place. She explains, "I shut out everyone; I shut out God; I shut out everyone who loved me. I hardly left my house. I stayed in my house every day. I ate and I watched television, and I've never been more miserable in my life."
When you are in a deep depression, it's all-consuming, so it's very hard to make positive steps to move forward or get help. Mandisa was in a depression for about 3 1/2 years until she reached a turning point. Mandisa said God showed her 3 things:
1. We have to walk in community with one another. - "There's a difference between needing time to re-energize and isolating and shutting out the world." Her loved ones loved her too much to leave her where she was. Friends and family are important!
2. Stop focusing on your mistakes in the past. - "I had to stop battling with shame because of all the mistakes I made."
3. Look for those flickers of light that come in so many places. - "Darkness is overwhelming, but it only takes one flicker of light to chase out that darkness."
If you’re struggling with depression, please reach out for support today. You can chat with a Hope Coach. It's free and confidential.
Mandisa's Grammy-winning song "Overcomer" was written for her best friend, Kisha, to encourage her while she was battling breast cancer. Mandisa later wrote "Prove Me Wrong" from the anger she was feeling after her friend died. She says the song is not tied up with a pretty Christian bow, but it's honest and heartfelt. She says through her grief she learned, "When you are dealing with grief, you have to bring that to the Lord, or you are going to bring it somewhere else."
If you or a friend need support right now, please visit the suicide prevention resource page. Head here for a list of crisis centers around the world.
Thank you everyone for your heartfelt comments and real stories of hope. We will be announcing the CD winners later today on social media - https://www.facebook.com/TheHopeLine/
When I was literally walking in the valley of the shadow of death (waking up everyday and being disappointed that I hadn't died yet) and running away from God (that's what depression does to believers), I stumbled upon Ez 37, 1-11 "the valley of dry bones". Yep, I was dead inside so that text definitely spoke to me. I asked the Lord to bring me back to life by putting back his Spirit in me. Later on, a few weeks before Easter 2016, I told the Lord that I wanted to be resurrected like Jesus. I asked to be brought back to life and He did on Easter 2016. I was at a Christian retreat and on Easter Sunday, right in the middle of a session of hymns and praises, a woman said: "There's a person here who was dead, who feels dead. The Lord tells us that he has rolled back the stone of her tomb." I knew she was talking about me. Yep, that's how I got out of depression. The first step towards the exit was Ez 37, 1-11. I also got a lot of support and strength for the volunteers from the PrayerZone.
What a beautiful testimony of God's healing power! Thank you so much for sharing your story here. And I am so thankful you found help through ThePrayerZone. 🙂
Just saw her in concert on Saturday May 20th she's amazing singer. She seemed couple songs from her new CD that made me open my eyes I don't know what they are but they're very powerful. Makes me want to go buy the CD. I can relate I feel like always in the dark I've been through a lot since I want passed away in 1999 and I just try to press on as much as I can I am currently in therapy it helps but not as much as I wish it would. I'm really good at beating myself up which I will need to learn to not.
So glad you got to see her in concert! Her songs are so powerful. That is good that you are in therapy. I believe you will get better. Sometimes healing takes time.
Very inspiring. I have really been struggling lately.. Helps to know I'm not so alone..
Thank you for your comment, Dee! We are here for you.
I really enjoyed the intetview because it gave me hope.
Thank you, Stephanie! We are so glad you found hope in our interview.